Dub Not Dubya

Friday, October 08, 2004
Oh hell oh hell oh hell....

Panic attack

Twice in one day. Oh hell.

Fear fear fear fear fear anxiety panic panic panic oh hell and I'm not even in it right now that's just how I explain it in the past tense.

Taking a step back, I remember reading some news article once that outlined what it said were the six (I think six) basic fears. I thought it was interesting and wrote the list down, but it's upstairs. Searched the web and don't think I found anything that had the same list as the article. Never get your information about psychology from news articles. But anyway, did find something else interesting: chart of fears, based on the enneagram. Never studied that system much, but now I'm intrigued. These fears make a lot of sense to me, especially since I was feeling them all simultaneously earlier.

What to do what to do what to do what to do

Feeling incompetent, utterly. If depression is the common cold of mental illness, then I guess anxiety disorders are the headache. Nah, that doesn't really work. Because headaches are too common and dismissed, even if migraines or Laura Brannigan's aneurysm. Hmm. But this thing really is paralyzing. But try to explain it for real. Yep, like depression, except different. Snap out of it. Get over it. Calm down! If only.

wtf wtf wtf wtf....more meds? different meds? where did i go, then? and is that a bad thing?

oh hell